It will never be enough but at least it will be something. That day, you overeat intentionally. You will force your body to get as big and plump and bloated and chubby and saggy and puffy and fat as you want. And you know you need it. One day, the decision is made. Google “how to get fat on purpose.” “Best ways to gain weight.” “Highest calorie foods.” “Men who gain weight.” “How to gain weight fast”. No change in weight is too small or subtle. The skin around their flat stomachs becomes soft and plump. Your college classmates start wearing sweatpants all the time. It starts by obsessing over other men’s weight.
